didn't like it when Dems did it...

and pretty disappointed the DCR are handing out "Had enough!?" signs. Really? no reason to vote for you, just "those other guys suck, am I right?" blech.

so, um, RTO may be on to something....

I've been up since 8 am! and never was sleepy during the day. Thought maybe I'd get up for an hour or so and go back to bed, but I didn't. But, RTO's expressed concerns that I may just be having a manic phase.... I'm still not feeling sleepy. Yesterday he was telling me I was a bit OCD about the wall paper.

Anyhoo, I'm noticing my brain is running a bit quicker than usual, but maybe this is "normal" and I just haven't seen it in so long it's starting to freak me out. I guess we'll find out in the days to come.

kitchen redo

a few before and during pics

The wall paper. mmmmm, eightieslicious

Most of the kitchen before..... I did the island a few weeks ago.

no wall paper!

yet more wall paper that is gone.

we used a steamer to strip it off, it was a bit time consuming. but cheap.

I'm starting to forget my list of stupid things...

so here's what i remember so far....

"you need to take some initiative."


(this was after I had a massive nose bleed while standing at the front desk and they were all ignoring me because I was upset about what they'd just told me about possibly leaving and I stomped off to my room to cry some more and they came and checked on me and asked where did that blood come from and I told them I was standing right there at the desk.)
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MK: I don't feel like doing anything when I'm depressed.

goofy therapist: so do something.

MK:

GT: not doing anything makes you depressed.

MK: um...

since not many people read here...

I'll probably share some of my recent experience with a local mental health hospital.

First, a short, um, recap.

Last Wednesday, I was feeling a bit worse and left work early cause I couldn't stop crying and on the way home figured that if I went home, that was going to be it. Didn't have a specific plan, but I'd picked up a steak knife at three in the morning and just barely scratched the top of my arm a couple times. still, that's more than I'd ever done before.

Anyhoo, went to the ER, explained the situation to them and they kept me there for a while, ran some tests, and then waited for a counselor/consultant. She strongly recommended that I stay in a hospital over night at the least and then get myself into the partial hospitalization plan. (basically, I go there during the day for group counseling and I can see a doctor more often).

So, I went there, and it stressed the heck out of me. I didn't sleep that night and made everyone's life difficult the next day, because I was under the impression I could leave. The staff there, however, had other ideas. so, after much crying and yelling and getting stupid forms signed (thank God that RTO was working on figuring out what I needed to do), I left at about five o'clock.

So now I go to some other building from 9 to 3 weekdays. and they generally plan for five to seven days,because it's more about getting people stabilized than fully treated but a few of the people in my group have been there a couple weeks.

it's only been two days so far, but I think this may actually work.

next will probably be my rant about stupid things to say to depressed people.

I crack myself up...

RTO: I almost bought some Devil Dog Brew coffee today.

MK: oh yeah?

RTO: yep

MK: how much is it?

RTO: $9.99 for 12 oz.

MK: whoa

RTO: right, that's like twice as much as what we're currently drinking.

MK: well, is it civet poop coffee?

RTO: no.

MK: do the devil dogs poop it out?

RTO: I'm not talking to you any more.

MK: *continues giggling uncontrollably*

life with Albert....

no laptop is safe. If he doesn't shut it down directly he'll just go turn the power strip off so the battery runs down. well played, kitten, well played.

ok, I'm tired of seeing my face ....

so, um, random pictures

the losers...

figured since I had a little make-up on for an audition I'd snap a few pictures.

I really don't do serious...

very different hair... meh.


here, I'm just being silly. I see this pose a lot only with more leaning and a lot more cleavage.

Albert pictures

He loves RTO's hair. This was at the vet's office.

He also like to "help" me knit.

I generally have to wait for him to get sleepy to get a picture.

bad pictures of a couple of recent projects...

couple of baby blankets for a friend that had twins a couple months ago. I usually try to take pictures in daylight, but RTO needed to take them and mail them.